It has been a long time since I have posted anything on this site, but now I think the time has come to wrap up this little blog.
As some of you may know, our family has been on a journey to recovery from Alcohol abuse. It has been a long and winding road with ups and downs along the way. I was so hopeful after my husband came back from rehab that things would be better for all of us.
Unfortunately life does not always turn out to be the fairytale ending that we would like. Soon after coming back from rehab, my husband started to drink again. I hoped and prayed that he would see how bad it was for us all, and try to stop again.
Instead of stopping he continued to abuse alcohol, along with other behaviors that ultimately tore our family apart. The last straw came when my daughter came to me one day and said that it was okay for me to leave, and in fact encouraged me to do so.
The thought of leaving scared me to the core, as I was middle-aged with no formal career training, and very little resources. Thankfully God placed people in my life who had experienced this before, and knew just where to get the help I needed. For a time I felt like I was giving up on our family’s recovery process, but God opened up my eyes to see that for my daughter and I, part of our process was to choose a different path than what my husband was following. We could no longer be a part of his process, as there was nothing more we could do for him, as he was the one that chose to walk away a long time ago.
As much as this has been a difficult choice for my daughter and I, it has actually brought us some much-needed peace. Now even more than before we are going to need to rely on God’s provision and leading in our lives. I don’t know what our future holds, but I know that God is still in control of our lives. I am going to continue to trust that God knows exactly where we need to move, and what kind of job I will get, and where my daughter goes to school.
I trust that this little post will be an encouragement to those of you who are living in similar situations that you don’t have to keep living like this..there are other options.